So there's been a lot on my mind lately

I have a lot on my mind right now. And yes, yes I am venting to a computer. Why? well to tell you the truth, it's because I don't really have anyone else to vent to. That and nobody knows about this blogger yet anyhow.

Of course I vent to God tho. But there is just something about seeing what's on my mind all written out. Writing helps me understand and put logic to what I'm feeling or thinking.

Anyhow, I've screwed some stuff up... pretty badly. (oh how I wish to go back in time.)

I just don't understand this season of my life. I've seen things in me that are so ugly and disgusting, that I didn't realize I had. I'm finding all my flaws... which is a good thing don't get me wrong! Now I can work on them. Seeing them has placed me on a path to make myself a better person.

But why this season?! Why this season in my life?

Only God knows...

So I put my faith in Him.

He'll work it out. He's doing this for a reason.

Despite what I think now, in the future I will be able to look back on this and know what He has brought me through.

Psalms 42:5-6ish

"Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and ⁶ my God...."