I feel like I'm getting back to my roots. Back to where I knew God was calling me. It's so crazy how I can just go from being crazy in tune and in focus..... to a place where I realize what's going on and that, that world is a distant thought of my past.
I'm not saying I've been completely unfocused from that, on the contrary, I've been serving even more and learning more. But I think after a while routine begins to numb the spontaneous cry of my soul to know Jesus more... on my own.
Even after a while spontaneity and random becomes routine, average, and normal, given it's been done enough.
I think writing has to do with a key inside of me. Writing helps me understand myself. It even helps me realize things deeper and roll with revelation.
...Somehow I always forget about this.
You can stay in the kiddy pool all day and stay comfortable with everything, or you can jump in the deep end. Thats where everything happens.
Life is risky business, and without risk, there isn't really any reward.
Especially in a walk with Christ.
The kiddy pool is full of self gratifying rewards. Things we can see coming and a sense of accomplishment that we can conquer whatever is around us, small children, fake inflatable sea animals, and our heads above water. Heck, its so shallow that we can even trick ourselves that we're even walking on water. (just close one one and bam! no depth perception) The kiddy pool hasn't got anything on us! We are kings!
Jesus didn't tell peter to walk on water in the shallow... or even when it was calm. The boat they were in was "buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it."[Matt. 14:24]
Even when we think that we are in the deep of the water and things are against us, Jesus shows up. Even though we think we're in deep, He asks us for his trust and tells us to come out of the boat. To climb out of your own security and into the deep. No longer are the inflatable sea animals fake, but the sharks prowl. No longer where there are small children, but we're alone. Where its dark and crazy and we honestly have no control. That's where it's at! When we abandon what hope we have in what we can "control" and let go.That's where He reaches out and offers Hand and helps us out. We realize how small we are, how little significance we really have in our own lives. We set aside who we think we are and what we can accomplish on our own... Then Jesus climbs into the boat with us and the wind calms.
...Who is king now? Jesus.
Our lives must scream this with every essence of who we are. What we do.
And with Him we are conquerers and co-heirs in Christ. [Romans 8] He is our strength [Philippians 4:13]
