good-bye ol friend.

I just did something that breaks my heart.


is it right to let go of people who have let go of you?
or is it better to stick it through to show that you care?
...that you'll always be there.
...that you won't change.
...that you're there till the end.
...through the thick and the thin.



I guess that sometimes you have to let things go.
...but should it be a person, or your problems?






suck.

...roo

The anger inside of me rages hotter than any other emotion.
With the feeling of abandonment as the fuel.

It's the feeling of being abandoned by the people I care most about, yet smothered by others so much that it makes me want to be sick.
I want to get out and be alone because I feel alone, but there isn't anywhere to go.

I know that there are people that love me. People who want to listen and help me with my troubles, but I don't want to talk to them. I want to talk to the source of my anger, this bitterness. I want to confide in God. I want things to be the way that they are/were supposed to be.

Life is dry.

I let you in.
I let you in so deep that I can't let go of you.
You made me face my my biggest fear. You've shown me what I hate most. You revealed the feelings that I hated so much; I had forgotten about them until you came along.

Did you ever really care about me? Or have you always been fake? Honestly, who are you? If you truly cared about me as much as you had said, how could you let me go? How could you let things become the way they are?

Empty words fill your mouth like bullets in a loaded gun.
You're locked and loaded aiming to hurt someone
Targeting the heart, going straight for the kill.

You're unhealthy
yet, I can't let go of you
I can't let go
trust me, I've tried
I've tried time and time again
I tried digging you out of my heart
but the feeling of abandonment has strapped you down













...do i seek the approval of man or of God?