It's Not About Me.

I wrote this spoken word not too long ago. I'm slowly learning that life isn't about me. that the universe doesn't revolve around me. God doesn't owe me anything, but when i trust in him, he will take care of me. I am blessed.

-It's Not About Me-

When will I understand

that my life isn’t in my hands…

That it’s not about me!

That it’s nothing that I, -myself can be

It’s something that I cannot grasp

all I can do is hold fast

…to love

It’s not about me, you see

It’s about bigger things,

more important things;

Because my life can be gone in an instant.

Instantly I can be

…gone and distant

Life is but a mist

And in the midst of it all

…I can be taken away

Here today, but gone tomorrow

So I must chose wisely -to what I will follow

You see, the bigger things, the more important Things

The things I need to see

Is that it’s not about me

… but the King

The King who sits on his throne

And he’s all alone

… longing for his people

He’s begging for them to change

To change their hearts -and love him.

Love only him.

But in their hearts they refuse to part with the things not of the king.

…And just like it’s not about me…

It’s not about you, too

It’s not about anything that WE can do

But only about what HE can do

It’s about what He can do through me

…And through you

When we set ourselves aside, can he truly shine

It’s time to realize that it’s not the things that we can do

But what the King can show His glory through

Christmas

When I was younger, I didn't believe that anyone could have their birthday on Christmas.
This was probably due to the fact that I never knew anyone with the birthday of December 25... except for Jesus.


I used to have this whole argument to prove that Jesus was real because nobody else ever had the same birthday as Him.
This argument supported the fact that God was so awesome, nobody could share the same day of birth as him.






0_o

Destiny

Today I realized something;
we aren't created to be normal, mediocre, or typical...

We're called to do something GREAT

...Just like Frodo, Harry Potter, or anyone else chosen to defeat the powers of the darkness.
Except our stories are better.

            Because they're real.

Truth.

Without the breath of God... I'm just a pile of dust on the ground.


           Genesis 2:7
                ⁷And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground,
                     and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man
                          became a living soul.

Hiro! n_n I'm going to like... update you on my life. k. deal

Life.

Hey! So I finally have internet for the first time in 10 months on a regular basis. This is awesome because I have felt so disconnected from everything due to my lack of internet. It is just a pain trying to keep up with everything when I didn't have internet at home. Truth.

Okay, so let the quick update begin.
SUMMER.
Summer has finally started! I'm done with my first year of internship at Calvary Temple in Modesto. It was such an experience. It is so awesome to be a part of such a great internship that cares so much about God moving in people's lives and shaking cities.

So now... now is the interesting part about my summer.
About a month ago my friend Alyson texted me & told me that she was the director of a Summer School in San Diego and they needed someone to be the bible teacher. She asked me if I wanted to move down to SD for the summer and take the position. I said I'd do it and after figuring everything out, we decided to house sit all summer so rent would be free... plus it sounds kinda fun. heh heh

So yeah. I just wanted to update on everything cause I feel like it has been forever since I've done a blog post, youtube video, or even like a dailybooth.
So here's a vlog. Just a little one, but I'll be sure to update again later and talk about how everything is going... like how the room I'm currently in has a spiderman painted on the wall. legit.

k.bye.


be love.

Endurance

We must endure.



Just like Joseph: "until the time... came: the word of the Lord tried him" (Psalms 105:19)

Although we may go through times of trials, God will lift us up in his timing. "Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time." (1 Peter 5:6)

As Christians, we believe that God has a plan for all of us. After prayer and devotion we often start to see glimpses of what that plan for our individual lives are. These plans that God has are never anything short of phenomenal. God places awesome callings on our lives according to the way He made us. Therefore, these callings are often the fulfillment of our own big dreams.
We see that God has given us the power and ability to attain our highest dreams.
The truth is, sometimes we get ahead of God's timing. We think: "I can do this!" and we begin to plan out in our minds how we believe everything will work out. But the thing is, God doesn't work in our timing. He often puts us in a time of trial to see how long we will hold on to attain these dreams.
Often times we will go through a "death stage". It's a stage in our lives where our dreams seem to be ripped out from under us. Everything we had... GONE!
We think: "God this is your plan! why isn't it working?!" or "Maybe that wasn't truly what God wanted me to do because it's not working out." But the thing is, When we have no funds, no friends, and no fight left in us (the death stage), we must remember the words of Jesus: "unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies [to self], it produces much grain" (John 12:24.)

When a vision dies and God resurrects it, we begin to talk and act differently, but this time it's WITH EGO SUBTRACTED AND GRACE ADDED.

We often get ahead of God and start to doubt him.
The thing is, often times we have to let go. When times get rough, we need to set them down before God and give them to Him. When we step out of the picture and place our dreams in front of God, that is when things start to make sense. It says, "God, I know you called me to do this and its not working. I can't do it." Once we realize that we can't attain our God given dreams ourselves, and believe that God can do all things... that's when the magic happens. That's when God steps in and adds His supernatural.


We have to let it die, and if it really is a calling from God, He will resurrect it.



God won't ever let you down. He's never let anyone done ever before.



"Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in him." Psalms 34:8




-Mar <3>

Blog Now Blog Never

Where has my heart for blogging gone?

It seems to have disappeared to the ends of the earth and beyond the far ends of the galaxy.



Alas, do not fret!

I just haven't been blogging 'out loud' to the internetz.

When I get inspired to write, I've been doing so in my journal. (which hasn't been that much lately to be honest)

Not having internet at home really is taking a toll on my social networking.

...&& even school because I have online classes. /=

I need to start embracing life more again.

and start writing more often.









anyhow, you rock.

<3>
-Mary