How often am i going to blog?? Why?

Well as long as there are things on my mind, I'll keep it flowing.

Normally I'll pick up one of my old notebooks and just go with the flow of what I've been thinking about.

I'm starting to blog online now because I feel like I need to be deeper as a person. I mean, I can be deep when its me and my notebook. Or every once and a while when I'm with a close friend... but I've come to a realization that in person I can be rather shallow.

I'm not shallow! I'm really not!

I just struggle with opening up to people, especially the people whom I like most. I fear their judgment of me as a person... a lot of the time, I'll try to open up to them, but my mind will do this thing where it just goes blank. I don't know what it is. I'll try to open up and talk about things, but my mind goes and completely zones out. Yeah I know it sounds stupid, but I'll honestly try super hard to keep a conversation, or find things to say, but NOPE. I hate it. That's not who I am! It's ruing friendships.


I think, I think too much

ANYHOW! welcome to my blogger. Whether you're a friend who I've told about this, or just a random person who has stumbled upon this page. Hi.

I'm simply a girl, with complex thoughts, and hidden emotions.